I promised myself I was going to try to be more positive minded this week. I have been working on that, but this post might not reflect such.
I joined a writer’s group about six weeks ago. This has a little to do with my personal insecurities. I seriously want to hone my skills before I put another work out there. I sit at my computer all day and pound out words. There is no one here to critique. When I go back to read it, it all makes sense. My husband says it is engaging and interesting, but what does he know, right?
Six weeks ago, this writers group met and I got to know everyone, but the venue was noisy and crowded. Not much was accomplished beyond getting introduced. We chatted awhile on everyone’s current projects, and it was mentioned that they are on chapter seven of a chain story that could be found in the files of the meet up group online.
I never made the time to read the chain story. I haven’t been in touch with anyone since that first meeting, as I missed the last meeting two weeks ago. They picked a new venue with a private room and much quieter, so it was decided that everyone would bring a short piece of their work to read; only I did not know about this decision, so I came empty handed last night. I was ill-prepared but they were forgiving.
The members are all at varying levels of progress. Some are fledglings and some are published. I got to listen to others read and the varied writing styles as a whole were quite remarkable. They are supportive and kind to one another and I feel comfortable. Again raise my insecurities. We all provided useful information to help each other out while remaining kind and supportive. It was a great feeling and I regretted not having any of my own work to share. This would have been a wonderful time to ask those questions my husband can’t answer about my first chapter.
Is it a good opening paragraph? Is it too much exposition? Do I wait too long to get to the action? Is it showing the history of chaos the two sisters grew up in? Does the back story and history get too tedious? Is it necessary? Am I telling the story rather than showing how these characters are relating to one another? Do you see fairly clearly and quickly the beginning of development of the character personalities? Namely the mother and two daughters? Is it engaging enough to make you want to know more about the characters and the story?
I have a good story, can I master the execution to make it a great story?
This is the beginning of a novel, not a short story, so it may be more spread out, more in-depth than a short story. Does it work?
I have two weeks to wait for the next meeting.
I plan to forge ahead, knowing that all the questions in my mind, when answered, may force a rewrite, and at the same time, might be just fine.
My insecurities. I can’t deny that I am in a place of self-doubt.
Should I rewrite my first chapter until I have no more questions?